What drives people to commit suicide? How hopeless must you really be? As i got out of the shower this morning i was hit with news. One of my friends had committed suicide. Him and the girls he was with had planed this he shot her and then himself. Had it been a car accident or something else i don't think the shock would've been as bad. But as i sit writing this blog i still cannot fathom the feeling that both of these people had felt. They both left suicide notes. I am unaware to what they said all i know is one was addressed to another friend of mine who had been dating the girl for 7 years. Needless to say he is torn up about it. What drives someone to kill themselves and another?  In a way i sorta hope that the Dr.'s find out they were on some sort of drug that caused them to do this. However from what i have been told this tragedy was planned. A fact that makes this even more chilling. And to make things worse the guy who did the deed was a long time childhood friend of my older brother (the one who is in the Navy). Of course we have unsuccessful in getting ahold of him God only knows how he will react.

Of course this isn't even the icing on the shit cake that has been my Thursday. To make matters worse out of all the sailors on my brother's ship he has been chosen to be as they call it "Boot up and Suit up". He is going to get a crash course in field combat and then he will be shipped off to Afghanistan with the Marines. Of course once he gets the news of his best friend killing himself who knows what will happen. As far as i am concerned i don't think i can handle another folded flag in the household.