Its 12:10 i have five hours of sleep left. But eveytime i go and lay down all i can think of is the friend Ive lost and how much i hate myself for losing her. And nothing is really helping the stone that is in my chest right now. instead of the steady thumping it is more like a painful scraping.  I just want my best friend back. I just want her to know how sorry i am. that i wasn't trying to walk away  i was trying to make things better. That i didn't mean to hurt her. I feel like a broken record but i don't want this to be goodbye..  I don't want her to hate me.