sleep why do you evade me
beauty why do you tease me
love why do you torture me
anger why dont you leave me
loneliness why cant you embrace me
beauty why cant i see your face
love why cant i just hold you
loneliness why cant i shake you off.

i am so weary, sleep is something i do not get to enjoy that oftem anymore. whether it be my thoughts or my dreams, i cannot sleep soundly anymore. i sometimes wonder what the world is thinking or what happens to the world when i do fall asleep. does it disappear and if it does does that mean you disappear as well. if you do then i would rather not sleep. yet again i find myself rambling on trying to make sense of my thoughts trying to make sense of everything. but my senses are also growing weary.  i am probably gonna look at this post and be like wtf mate. oh well rt more minutes till i can go home an try to rest before kung fu. ugh god help me please