i keep going back to what you wrote and each time i find myself more frustrated and confused. you make it seem like i mad you out to be a bad person i never did that. i never said anything bad about you. when anyone asked i always made a point to try and take all the blame. tried to make me the bad guy. but part of me feels like its not fair. its not fair the way im being treated by everyone. its not fair damnit. i tried so hard, so hard to give you what you needed. bit everytime i needed someone everytime i needed a friend. nobody had the time. and still nobody has the time. do you have any idea how hard this is. how ashamed i am or how sorry i am.  do you even care anymore. if you dont its ok just let tell me so i know. im tired of hurting im tired, of this aching heart.  and you arent all to blame. i shouldve listened but, im stubborn. its ok if you dont forgive me. its ok if you dont ever want to be my friend again. do i think its fair. no, but what i think doesnt matter anymore i guess.