iunconditional without condition or restraint. one thing that people dont get is the way i work. for me the hardest thing is not being there for people i love and care about. when i tell someone i love them it isnt something i say lightly. i mean lets face it i had sex with my ex and i never told her i loved her. to me words mean alot the tone of them the implication the magnitutde. maybe i take words to seriously but nonethless they are important to me. three words that i never use loosel...i love you. to me there is to much responsibility and importance to go around saying it without thinking. excluding family there are only six people who i have told those words to.

stephanie gonzalez
erin rebello
christopher lavoy
jacob lane
richard rivera
jc henson.

let me help you to understand why so few have heard me say those words. when i tell someone i love them it isnt only during good times i am not a fairweather friend. love is a life long commitment. no matter what happens. anyone of those six people could stab me in the back beat me up and throw me in a ditch and my love for them would never cease nor would it be any less. i love people more than i love myself. the hardest thing is when someone i love is hurting and there is nothing i can do. i worry all the time about my loved ones. regardless of how things have turned out currently nothing changes the fact that i am here and that no matter what i will always love them. i know some of them dont want me in their lives but please understand i am never gone i am always here. i love you all so much you six hold such a special place in my heart and always will. and you will always have my love and friendship with out restraint or limits it will always be unconditional. i hope when my two avid readers read this they find comfort in knowing that.