So theres this girl...

As I sat on the back porch of Logan's Grandparents' house enjoying some quiet time with my pipe my thoughts started to wonder to a particular individual. It is an interesting predicament I have found myself in because she is single she is smart and she is very attractive. But there is a catch (what you thought it would be easy?). She is a few years younger than me not to much but enough that there is a difference. Even though she is young she is extremely mature and isn't as stupid as a lot of the younger girls i know. Not that i no a lot. She has found her way into my thoughts and i don't know what to do. is this a test for me from God? I care about her and she seems to care about me but we have mutually come to an agreement that now would not be a good time to even think about any sort of relationship beyond the point of friends. But everyday as we talk that agreement seems harder and harder to hold up too. I have a feeling that she feels the same way but both of us are aware of the possible consequences of what could happen. And yet as i was thinking about this while staring at my reflection in the pool it felt right. Of course i have done a lot of things that "feel right" and they usually end up being wrong. How do i get myself in these situations? Is this something that is suppose to be just not now? Or is this some wild fantasy i have? Do i love her? No but i do care about her and who knows what may happen in the future i don't only God. I hat not having control or even an idea of what is to come. I hope this works out but i am not going to be stupid about it. What ever happen to the days where consequence was just a word and not a reality? Well in the end all i can do is hope for the best right? But as i stared at the rippling water of the pool i couldn't help but to think about those blue eyes. Hmm maybe one day i can right a song about them.