Lock it up tight.

It seems that everywhere i turn i am caught between a rock and a hard spot. Every decision i make just leads me down a path of long lectures of how wrong i am. I am sick and tired of this crap.  I know i am not perfect and like everyone i make mistakes but sometimes i feel people overreact 90% of the time. But i Guess that is the price i pay for being misunderstood.  I don't even know what to say. People accusing me of shit putting in their 2 cents when they don't even know half of whats going on. Then calling me a hypocrite really? I mean come on you through your problems at me and i try my best to help i don't stick my nose in your business and act like i know everything.  Sure i may be a bit rough around the edges but that's my personality.  I don't do anything to Jeopardize other people i only put myself at risk. I am no one important so that is why it doesn't really matter to me if i get hurt or get into trouble.  i have never been a violent person but i just want to hit something right now.  You hurt me in a way that i cant even describe and you think its ok? Like you can just act like i don't care. I really envy people like Eminem someone who is able to take his feelings and put them into a song or lyrics. And when he is pissed you know it. That is talent letting people know how you feel. If i could do that i would.  Have you ever been hurt by someone you love and care about?  Whenever i think of you right now i get angry i don't want to be angry at you but you leave me no choice. You did this to me! I was really hoping we could hit the pads at Kung Fu tonight but we did staff work instead it was hard controlling myself you cant use to much force with staff otherwise it comes back and hits you in the head (yes i have had this happen several times). And the worst part is if i don't get rid of this anger then feel I know i sound like him. That guy who hurts you the one that i cant even look at anymore without getting furious. And i hate myself for sounding like him.  I need someone right now but everyone is against me. Looks like i am back where i started fending for myself. See what happens you let people in and they mess you up.  Next time i think i will just lock the doors.