Why does it always rain on me?

There is a lot in life i don't understand.. I got the strangest feeling we belong but it just seems that i am the only one. Why do i feel this way? It isn't my choice i didn't ask for this, it just...happened. Is it a coincidence? No i don't believe in coincidences there has to be some reason. Does God just want me to sit back and watch? If that is the case why didn't he choose someone who can actually do that? When i see you or think about you or just spend time with you. Everything is ok and nothing really matters. But when you leave the clouds start to roll in and the rain starts pouring. Everyone tells me its alright and i see the light but the tunnel just gets infinitely longer it is almost like it is teasing me. Well i guess if there is one thing nobody can take away its my music. I will always have that to fall back on (to bad its not a woman).  But even that is just an abstract concept it isn't tangible.  So no matter how much i listen to it i will never be able to hold it in my hand.  Maybe that's what you are an  abstract person someone i see and talk to and spend time with, but am never able to hold you. You asked me "if you could do one thing right now what would it be?" After having more time to think about it my answer is to stop the rain from falling. To keep you with me. But It seems that even when the sun is shining i still cant avoid the lightning strikes. Because i know that you will always have to leave me. But out of all the things that frustrate me the one thing that i always come back to is how did i get in the middle of this storm? But i guess that is how it works you cant control the rain or the weather it just happens so i guess the real question is why me?