Behind Brown Eyes

So I have always considered myself the hero in the story of life. That guy who is always there when someone needs help or someone to talk to or needs advice. Or when someone is in danger I always imagined it would be me who comes to save them. But i feel like i have not properly casted myself. As much as i may like to think of myself as the hero i cant help but to shake the feeling that i am the bad guy. You know the one who is trying to help but only ends up messing things up?  What if I am not supposed to be the hero does that make me the villain? I sure as hell am not gonna be a pedestrian or some person in distress no, i am either the hero or the villain no in between. I don't want to be the bad guy but it just seems to end up that way no matter what I do. Its like that The Who wrote "Behind Blue Eyes" except mine are brown.  I wish someone was out there who could relate who understood what its like to be "fated" (pronounced like faited). " But my dreams aren't as empty as my conscience seems to be".  But what is the point of having a dream if you have no one to share it with? I have hours, only lonely.  But I guess i am asking to much because really nobody is going to know what its like "Behind Brown Eyes". I cant expect people to understand me because to simply put it, They are not me.  Well maybe one day someone will come along but I guess for now I am on my own.