well once again i find myself in isolation. no one home, no one to talk too. no one who will listen. no one who cares. maybe i am just feeling sorry for myself. but right now i dont care. when your the problem in everyones life. no one else is so i want this moment of self pity. i dont care how pathetic i am. i was actually happy before and well now i sorta messed it all up. could be worse i guess there are always worse situations. but most of the time peopl or victims of enviroment of circumstance. me, im just a victim of myself. the fight has always been me against me. you are your hardest opponent you all your mo es and echniques. and well i lost one ov my allies in this whole process. so tha brings me to where i am now. laying bed blogging on my phone. blaming myself and love for everything that has transpired. i though i could find it and fix things. instead i lost and destroyed everything