i feel sick. like physically ill and to say i dont know the why would be a lie. but no matter what i do i cant stop feeling like this. i feel like im slowly slipping and i cant get a footing or a grip no matter how hard i try. but does it matter. no, not really. i dont care much for siympathy although it would be nice to have someone who understands me and where i am coming from. but no matter ive enough probably too much and damn here comes that sick feeling again. fml