What I Want to Say.

So there is alot i want to tell you but i am afraid i wont get the chance. So i am gonna try my best however once again i am at a loss for words but thank God for Taylor Swift

Got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
I had so many dreams
About you and me
Happy endings
I went and let you down
I hope it's not too late for me

So here i am, on my knees
Begging for forgiveness
I'm so sorry
But  you have someone
Who will actually treat you well
This is a big world
We are stuck in a small town
I just hope i don't get stuck disappearing in your rear view mirror.

After the retreat i finally realized what i did wrong besides the whole abandoning you thing. I love you but it isn't my place that belongs to somebody else. I got so wrapped up in how i felt i didn't realize that i was in the wrong place that it isn't my place to sweep you off your feet. I couldn't except that fact and i was so angry and jealous that i couldn't get ahold of myself. I exercised a lack of humility snapped and when i did you of all people got hit by the back lash. I really want to tell you all this in person but seeing as you are busy and dealing with your own problems this was the only way i could get this out. I'm so sorry for everything and i really hope you are doing ok. You don't need to respond to this i know you are busy. But if we don't fix things if the fragile line we walk does break just please don't ever forget that i love you and always will. You are and always will be in my prayers.