Where is My Backup?

i honestely thought going to sv would really help me feel better before the school year started. its always been my getaway place. but being here has only made things worse, mainly because i ended up in the same place i do when im in gilbert. in a dark movie theater by myself. i feel like im in some sort of fight or a war but im by myself. when i call for backup instead of getting a response all i get is static. i feel like i should just stop trusting people or expecting things. because lets face it all that happens is i get let down or hurt in the end. its almost not even worth the pain. but alas i am forced by the moral code that runs the universe to stick it out. it would just be great if i had some backup.