Lost

Dont get too excited I am not about to start writing about that ridiculous show, this is a bit more personal. You know its weird I was sitting and talking with my mom and grandma today when my grandma said something to me that sorta seemed odd. She told me that "I have always struck as a boy who is lost". Lost, that word brings up such interesting images. When I think of lost I think of someone wandering the dessert wearing some sort of middle eastern turban and struggling to survive. I think of lost in the religious sense as in like in the song Amazing Grace "I once was lost but now I am found", only just without the being found part. However, the phrase that really sorta comes up is from Pirates of the Caribbean when Captain Barbosa says "For certain you must be lost to find the places that cant be found", in other words you cant find something that isn't lost. This also refers to finding oneself in life.

As much as it kills me to say it, she is right I am lost but for some reason I have a Barbosa sense of wonder when it comes to being lost. However, I worry if it is apathy that has made me this way or is it understanding that I cant change things and that things need to be. Now I am not referring to people and relationships I am talking about life in general. You know that point in life when people expect you to know what your plans are? Sometimes you have to just wait and see what happens, and if you are worried about being lost its ok someone will find you.