i sometimes hate this blog. its like a blessing and a curse. i hate that i really cant express how i feel without gettin chastised or in trouble. but you know what hurts the most is when all of my friends have problems when they afe hurt or need somebody and i am standing right here shouting, hey hello im right here and im just ignored or pushed aside.  am i missing something. do i just not get something. why does everyboey push me away. all i want to do is help and console. but apparently i cant apparently something is wrong with me. am i being sensitive. probably. but thats who i am i feel to much i am a sap and i am sensitive. so believe me when i tell you guys that it breaks my heart to see you guys in pain. and it hurts me when i cant help. i doubt anybody is going to read this let alone pay any attention to this. but if you are a reader looking for idk what youd be looking for just please dont close out this blog without knowing.
i love you.