Empty Hands

all i have ever wanted to do is help people. since i was a little kid i was always superman and i eould always try and protect and save evrybody. i like to comfort those who need comfort often i find myself completely incapable of helping myself but will still run to someone if they need me. nothing hurts me more than thought of somebody crying or being upset and me not being there to comfort them and hold them. i hate feeling inadequate i hate the feeling of not being able to be there when someone is in need. i recently was presented with an oppurtunity to work in a hospital. i filled out the application and now its up to god and to be honest the anticipation is literally killing me.  but if i do get the job then i know where my path lays.

as of late things have been ridiculous if you dont know by now there is somebody in my life who is very special to me. and that is seriously understating it. for someone like me the worst feeling is feeling like im not good enough, maybe there is some sort of underlying psychological issue but thats beside the point. i hate feeling inadequate like my hand is outstretched but isnt good enough or sometning like that. so if you read this and your hurting please..my hands are open dont let them go empty.