disclaimer, i am blogging from my phone so i wont be grammatically correct.
so i realized that i have this irrational fear. its kinda ridiculous because when i feel it creeping on me it leads to what can only be described as a panic attack. maybe its because prior events that have happened. maybe its due to the way i feel about you. but this fear creeps on me and it really scares me more than anything. i am so afraid im going to lose you. i know it sounds stupid and crazy but idk why this fear keeps coming up. it slowly makes its way into my head and starts to blacken my thoughts. and slowly my head starts playing every scenario of how it could happen. i needed to write to help alleviate some of the fear. but even then it doesnt help much. i dont want to lose you.
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