Ramblin Man

So I don't really know why I am bloggin. I guess I have alot on my mind, well sort of. It's like everything and nothing is on my mind.

I Just wish I could make sense of things, I feel....stupid. Maybe I am never supposed to understand things it's like Bright Eyes says "These things take forever I especially am slow". I don't like where I am at all, physically and emotionally. I want to leave. I don't know where I would go but out of this damned house would be great. Chris asked me to move with him to San Diego and as much as tempting of an offer that is I couldnt. I have to much here. No I think just my own place would suffice. I also wish God would be clear with me. I feel likehe is taking me somewhere but I have no idea where and it sucks. There is my romantic life which I dont even want to talk about. I just feel like I'm am going to explode and so does my GD head! I want so much...maybe that is my problem. Maybe I should be happy with what I have. It also pisses me off that I am constantly managing to hurt the only friend I have. I don't mean to I just I dont know get carried away or something. I am not trying to make an excuse for myself, I guess all that I can do is hope that my friend is patient with me.

The craziest thing happened to me today. I got into a fight with myself. I was in the car and I started arguing with myself out loud. Maybe I am just slowly slipping into madness. Of course maybe I just need some sleep.