If there is one thing in the world i hate more than ever it is change. I hate having t move. I hate having to say goodbye to people. I hate when friendships change, hell i even hate when i have to change seats in school, but i am a creature of habit. I like things the way they are. Sure i may be messy and slightly disorganized but i know just where everything is so i can find it.
I feel like something is changing and i don't know if i like it. what it is exactly i don't know but i know something is changing. Today i made a bit of an interesting discovery. I was listening to Pandora radio when i got tired of listening to the music that was playing. It's not that i am tired of music, i just didn't want to hear the words. For the past month now i have listened to strictly instrumental music no singing, no lyrics, just the soft sound of the piano.
On December 25th it'll be the 7 year anniversary of me getting my piano. there has never ever been a gift in the world that has been able to top that gift. Surprisingly enough it was from the one person who i would never have expected it from, my dad. Now my dad and i don't really have much of a relationship but that is not why i am writing this. it seems as of late the only thing that really wants me is that gift i got so many years ago. I know it sounds funny but when i sit down and play even if it is something i make up i just feel like nothing matters just the music. When i listen to music i don't care what the person singing has to say. the instrument says it all..
For a long time i have always loved artists and bands that have deep meanings to their songs. But now i just don't care about that anymore i just want to hear the instrument. Things have not been going well recently, at least not socially. But regardless of who is mad or upset with me i know my piano will always be there to bring me comfort when i need it. I thank God for the gift he has given me.
I like the fact that few people understand or appreciate the music i listen too. If everybody did then it wouldn't be my escape. There is no better feeling then listening to how the notes of a piano can simply break your heart or fill you too the brim with joy. I wish i could just lock myself in a room and play the piano till the day i die. No people no worries Just me and my gift.
If you did in fact lock yourself up in a room and play the piano for the remainder of your life I would be sad. I would miss you. So please don't. Lol. But I am glad that you have the piano. I'm glad that you have that escape. Everyone needs one but not everyone necessarily knows what it is. Feel blessed that you have one and have the knowledge of what it is. I love you Michael. Change is not always pleasant and it is rarely welcomed but it is at times necessary. It is also a way of God revealing his plan, in the smallest of ways.
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