Somthing

When I look into your eyes

It's like watching the night sky

Or a beautiful sunrise

There's so much they hold

And just like them old stars

I see that you've come so far

To be right where you are

How old is your soul?

I won't give up on us

Even if the skies get rough

I'm giving you all my love

I'm still looking up

And when you're needing your space

To do some navigating

I'll be here patiently waiting

To see what you find

'Cause even the stars they burn

Some even fall to the earth

We got a lot to learn

God knows we're worth it

No I won't give up

I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily

I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make

Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use

The tools, the gifts we've got yeah we got a lot at stake

And in the end, you're still my friend at least we didn't tend

For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn

We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in

I had to learn what I got, and what I'm not

And who I am

I won't give up on us

Even if the skies get rough

I'm giving you all my love

I'm still looking up

So easy is our life

What's mine is yours and yours mine

Hardly do we ever fight

We'd rather be kind

I won't give up on us

Even if the skies get dark

I'm healing this broken heart

And I know I'm worth it

I won't give up on us

God knows we're tough enough

I've got a lot to learn

God knows you're worth it

No I won't give up on us

God knows I've had enough

We got a lot to learn

And we're, and we're worth it

No I won't give up

No I won't give up

idk what is worse. losing the person i loved the most or knowing that there is a vast multitude of people who would like nothing more than to make me bite down on a curb while they plant their heel on the back of my head, it really sucks. i know i am not the only person in this wold who is dealing wtih what i am but for some reason i just feel like nobody understands and probably never will. i know that jesus is always with us and walks beside us but if this heart is your home then why does it feel so alone.

I don't want to give up, I can't. But if you tell me to stop, that you want me to go away forever, what choice would I have?

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What do you do when the only person you will ever love walks away from you, when promises of forever are broken and the one thing you hold dear lies in shattered piece? What're you supposed to do when the only person you want to be with says I don't want you and you are faced with the harsh reality that you are are going to be alone? And what do you do when the only person in the entire world to blame is the person staring back at you?

How do you cope when those shattered pieces are from yourself dropping the glass? I am my own worst enemy. I don't know how to handle this or if I ever will be able too. There is no self pity here just anger. There is no forgiveness just resentment. There is no comfort only pain brought on by a decision that I made. The only person to live with...is myself.

Talkin' 2 Myself

Is anybody out there?

It feels like I'm talkin' to myself

No one seems to know my struggle

And everything I come from

Can anybody hear me?

I guess I keep talkin' to myself

It feels like I'm going insane

Am I the one who's crazy?

So why in the world do I feel so alone

Nobody but me, I'm on my own

Is there anyone out there

Who feels the way I feel

If there is then let me in 

And let me know I'm not the only one alone

Just how I have been feeling as of late, thank you Slim Shady.

What's Left?

i have nothing left. i have a certification and a diploma thats all. i cant believe where i am at. i wanted one thing, one single god damn thing and because i am me i lost it. because i am a fuck up i lost it. everything just seems so pointless and mundane i just want to make things right. i just want to fix things, i dont want to lose the only good thing i had. there is a word that just keeps bouncing around in my head and no matter how hard i try i cant escape it. its the same word that has followed me my entire life and now will probably haunt me till the day i die.