A Simple Choice

I hate myself right now. I couldn't stop crying on the drive home. I feel broken, like I am falling apart. What the hell was I thinking? What is wrong with you Michael Ryan? I left because it didn't feel right, I felt like I shouldn't be there, and now that I am home I feel alone and want nothing more than to be with you right now. I am sorry I fail miserably at life. You have no reason to be with me. Why didn't I just stay? Why couldn't you have just said "I want you to stay?" It's not your fault its mine. I have a feeling it's gonna be one of those nights. The ones where I don't sleep because I am to busy hating myself. I am sorry. Not that it matters I guess. I love you so much, i am sorry you are stuck with an idiot like me. You deserve so much more. To stay, or not to stay? It was a simple choice with a simple answer. I would say goodnight but I wont be asleep. I'll just be laying in my bed being silently judged by the shadows on my wall.