As I left my girlfriend's apartment last night I plugged my phone in to listen to music and the first song that came on was "Divine Romance" by Phil Wickham. This is one of my favorite worship songs ever, but for some reason I thought of it from a different perspective. The song talks about the beauty of God's divine romance with us humans, but I thought about what the song or at least the title would entail to a relationship between two people.
For the first time in awhile I went to confession AND received Jesus in the Eucharist and again, just like very time I was completely blown away by His infinite love and mercy. It is not humanely possible to describe how much God loves us. However, there are instances where that love is manifested in a relationship between two people. When I was in the confessional the priest said something to me that I knew, but I didn't really think about, he said, "The beginning of true love is selflessness".
It is my belief that every relationship (especially between two married people) is a manifestation of God's divine romance, of course we see that these things don't always work out. I love my girlfriend. Every time I see her regardless of the circumstances I feel like I fall in love with her all over again. My favorite quality is that her and I both share the same love for the Catholic Faith, the sacraments and, ministry. This is the foundation of our relationship.
However, although we love each other and share a common faith, we are still human and like all humans we make mistakes, I am not going to sit here describe everything but I will share my thoughts and experience that I gained through this. The reason I held off on confession was because I didn't feel guilty, I felt no regret in my heart for my actions. How could I go to confession if I was not truly sorry. It wasn't until she said something that really got me thinking, "I really want to receive the Eucharist" and she wasn't the only one. This phrase had resonated with me and it got me thinking. Later on as the weeks went by I read something on a friends facebook profile that said "Guys, if you want to find your Mary, then start acting like a Joseph". It took some time for me to figure out why this affected me and alot of prayer.
Finally it happened, I realised what the issue was. The issue wasn't what we did, it was how it affected our relationship, not with each other, but with Christ. The center of every strong relationship must be God. Adam messed up because he failed to protect his wife from the wickedness and deceitfulness of the devil, I don't want to be an Adam, I want to be a Joseph. What my girlfriend and I have is something beautiful that I hope everyone will experience. However, it is not just because our relationship with each other, but with our relationship with God this isn't just our romance but it is his Divine Romance.
You're so perfect for me it takes my breath away. You're everything I need.
ReplyDeleteI am too overwhelmed to express what I want to say. But I love you and you and I are on the exact same page.