I hate constantly feeling like I am not good enough. I thought that something would've changed since we first met, but I don't know this just feels all to familiar to me. I have tried so hard to change and be a better a person. I have started seeing some one to help deal with things in the past that have been left untouched for far too long. And yet no matter how I try to explain things to make you understand, to show you that you are important to me and I would do anything for you it just isn't enough. I am tired of being misunderstood and under appreciated. I mean come one "I didn't ask you to do that"? Really you might as well slap me in the face....seriously.
Maybe thought this is what I deserve I mean I will admit I have been far from perfect and I did do some horrible things. But I am trying to make amends and well apparently that was stupid of me. I feel like all that ever happens is that everything just gets thrown back in my face.
I guess I should just face the music and realize that nothing I ever do will ever be good enough.
You're absolutely clueless.
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