I always find it odd that whenever i really need someone nobody is around. It just happens that i have been crying..no balling the past three days. I don't wan to talk i don't want to think i just want to get it all out. But i, cant love isn't something that just goes away. Its embroidered in my soul and it will never go away.
Monday night i had the most amazing experience with the most beautiful woman in the world. As train says "The weight has finally lifted, and love has finally shifted my way." I actually thought God was finally going to let me love the person who i have wanted to my entire life. But just as quickly as Monday came it went and now i find myself trying to not shortout my keyboard from all the tears that are falling from my face. I have no one to talk to because all of my friends are on a retreat, and the only person who is here with me is dealing with alot. So in short i am all alone. Idk what to do. I was so happy and i was so at peace with everything in the world and now its all gone. the memory of that night is so wonderful and beautiful but then reality hits and i realize that it was only for one night. Everybody probably thinks i am crazy and if you do fine i don't care. I am in love.
See the different with this person is that no matter how much it hurts, no matter how hard it is. I will always love her unconditionally. Look up unconditional love and tell me what you find. Idk if i am just an emotional masochist. But i will say that God put her in my life for a reason. I don't care how long i have to wait. I don't care how long it takes. There will never be another woman for me. She is the only one. And if she chooses someone else then so be it as long as she is happy and as long as she knows i will ALWAYS love her no matter what.
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